Thinking Trauma

It's been mere a week before starting on my first job. Many stuff crosses my mind and again am blaming myself for someone who thinks too much. So here I am again pouring my thoughts into this blog. About my story and about who I am.

Couldn't sleep and wonder why. No answers to that. Perhaps just some random thoughts kicking into my mind. Have been going through my memories, to see how far I can trace it back. Searching through the cupboards of memories, pulling the boxes and see how far my mind dated back. So it all started back from my kindergarden time as far as I can remember, trying to trace back those faces I knew then to junior school, high school, matriculation time then most current ones which was my uni life... Thinking back those friends I knew and some still keep in touch with is amazing. 

Going back through these memories are amazing. Really astounding to flash back on how far the journey I have made to where I am today. The changes I have went through and even the people I met. It's so fresh in my mind and seem like it's just few days or months away, but the reality surfaces. It's like 10 years ago and everything changes but the memories remains.

So much of the yesterdays where the past remains the past. What matters are the present and only the present so much that determines tomorrow's outcome.

So money minded these days when that really kicks into the brain when future plans are there. Watched a TV show recently and it rings so true to me as a man who just simply live life simple. To just forget about the complications of life and live life as there is. To earn a penny and spend a penny. To travel when there's enough money to do so just to enjoy life and be happy. Life is so much happier that way, to really set no goals at all and be worry free about nothing.

But is that possible? Not very likely unless I am a man of my own and nothing more. To live my own life where no one really cares about. To go anywhere I want to. Living life pointlessly are really great sometimes. 

Have been reviving Unity Bond once again, to keep things moving. It had been stranded for too long. And walla, finally a dot com for a shared blog with my very close friend. Am not sure how far can we bring this website but hopefully it would be more recognize globally and attract more people to read it. 

Watched 3 Idiots with my family just now. And it's a REALLY good movie. Funny and quite touching as well~ MUST watch!

So what waits ahead would be living a holistic life. A holistic being. Would explain more about this phase of life on the next post.

Have to sleep early (not so early) for a friend gathering back to high school rays trip tomorrow! Gonna meet the old faces again~ And it feels so good~

Till den~ :)