The Dark Light

When everything seems so unreal. 


And when what you expect is far beyond reachable. 


To have seem to lost in within. 


To stare through blankness. 


To figure the missings out. 


And realize that it was farfetched.


 Lost for words that couldn't be made. 


And filled with emptiness with the lights fading out. 


To be filled in darkness contented with own thoughts.


Only to realize the perfect world are far beyond reachable.


Far beyond reachable....


What an emotional day I had. Looking forward for a greater day tomorrow, and with that, I shall be doing my own stuff, drowning with my own thoughts. For another day~

Meeting Great People

So once done before and now here I go again~ Meeting extraordinary people... 

Was in AIESEC before in meeting external people to talk about business partnerships and so forth and can't believe here I am doing similar tasks (luckily things go so much easier when I know the tactics already) in making appointments and interviews for my theses sake~

The process repeated itself but this time much effectively~ Have been making more appointments that I can handle myself alone... Like twice a day... To think back, with such productivity I am surely to raise more companies when I'm in my department.

The good moments make a comeback for me. It really felt that great and awesome meeting big and great people... Have been meeting Directors, General Managers, CEOs and highly experienced fellows~

What's really make me feel good is that the atmosphere are not even tense and akward. It's been comfortable with laughters in the conversation... And of course, apart from educational extraction, the interview last more than 1 hour... 

The satisfaction of meeting great people, talking with them, sharing their opinions and experiences are invaluable. What makes them inspiring are their passion and determination which puts them in a whole new level.

A whole new level worth of to be. And for me to be. :)

The Disturbing Reality

Went by a car showroom~ Hesitated a moment~


Looked through the glass window~ Eyes opened up wide~ Jaw dropped~


Sigh~ Walked away~


Sounds funny to me... And am so determine for myself... When I looked through the glass window glaring at the brand new KIA Optima car, am already drooling at the awesome luxury car. At second thought, it seems impossible for me in attaining such car even in my life~ *sighed*


So that's when reality surfaces... When the thought about myself walking the economic life alone. And totally not thinking about parent's support. It feels like... Gosh! How am I suppose to live at such expenses of life if my parent's don't support me?


Thinking of its worst scenario~ That's who I am and always blame myself for getting to the worst point in life~ When the worst really happen... I really don't know what I can do.


So there I am facing the world myself by taking account of all the stuff I need and what's that left of me to do... And that's to earn a living. 


Final semester coming soon and ending real soon~


It's time to draw real plans. Real goals. Real detail steps meaning weekly accomplishments...


And real evaluation...


So that's what I call reality~ 

2012 New Resolutions

2011 gone by... It's a new new year~ Or perhaps the dreaded year of all... 2012, the rumored Mayan predicted end of the world December 2012 or whatever that predicament is...


It's the dragon year from Chinese Lunar and fortune teller even predict and comment that the year of dragon would not be of a good year. Nevertheless, I have experience the greatest celebration this Chinese New Year season with all the blasting of fireworks, tons of it (annoying sometimes) and many red lanterns hung everywhere on my sight and not forgetting receiving many ang paos~ Haha~ (seems like the Chinese this year really celebrates like the end is coming)


All in all~ It's a new year to look forward to. Have been reviewing my past 2011 resolutions and have a little laugh at some ridiculous not-done goals I have set. Pretty great achievement for me as well by accomplishing almost half of all the goals. Cut down facebook usage, less spending that much, start saying more "No" than "Yes" just to name a few~ (or maybe my busi-ness contributes to my achievements... it correlates anyway. LOL~)


Some not able to achieve are being brought forward in 2012. And yes! I am so gonna hunt these goals down with determination! Exercise more is one of them~ Gah~


Upgraded my Mac with OS Lion~ Great! Awesome makeover and handsomely designed. Bad thing is I have to re-learn how to use it with all the great and hidden features to explore... This seriously takes time. 


And so officially my 5th semester is over! Moving forward with my final semester in university. Have been hearing friends' sadden thought leaving the uni soon and leaving great friends behind~ While some moaned and dreaded the working life~


In the midst of new year mood. Am so indecisive of either to walk up the education pathline or step into the working zone so soon. I wonder why there are no such talks as to what we should do best. I'm on my own. My life, my choice.


One month holiday... Gonna cramp it with reading loads of books piling on my table AND to start interviewing people for my theses sake! It's SO gonna be an educational holiday month for me... *sob sob*


Happy Holiday Calvin! The books will love you! :)