Still Not Dead Yet

I'm alive! Thank goodness finally gotten my senses into re-update my blog once again (alwiz say so :P) Knowing I'm gone far too long would means I'm nearly as good as dead wiping myself out of this database. Have even thought of never coming back to my own blog again. Leaving it dead. So sad right?

The greatest challenge for me to come back to writing again is time management and self management. Have not been managing my time wisely, not entirely to blame myself partly to my work! Plus my discipline and declining aspirations while doing some soul searching. It's my second time doing soul searching and it's really mind disturbing at the same time. Feeling lost. (like a puppy wandering the streets not knowing where it's headed)

Have been working nearly a year of experience as what my degree scroll displayed and I quited. Not the hardest thing to do but one of the silliest decision made although am not regretting it. Why I find it silly is because it's tough nowadays to even get a job (yes, even for QS already) and quitting is like letting go such opportunity and contribute myself to an increase of unemployment rate. Why I decided to go then? The factors mainly lies with the learning opportunities, working environment and a deadly superior. My former explanation is that 1 year may seem short but knowingly my career development will not go that far to work in a company that does not invest in construction technology softwares. I may even fall short in the next 5 years of my career if I don't place myself learning BIM which is predicted to takes over QS role in the future. Unless I limit myself to similar companies vested in conventional system forever. My latter two factors maybe because it's my first job experience but it's okay along the way. Another factor is because there are too many other opportunities out there that catches my attention (with my lack of self discipline)

Am currently active hunting my career in Singapore. And wish me luck! It's a long term goal while being there. I shall keep these secrets of plans myself unless I am PM for what's my plan there. Haha~

So here I am. I'm jobless, feel free to comment if you want to hire me. Or even spend some time with a jobless guy. Sounded so sad right?

Til then. I will write again I promise.

The Crossed Line

Finally, I have found some time for myself writing this update. It's been a jolly good week since I started on my very first job of my life! (I have crossed the line after all)

Working in a construction company was never easy and never will. Seem like my expectation towards working life changed a bit as it's a bit unexpected from what I imagined to be. And the rest of this paragraphs (except for the last one, if you wish to skip) shall contain my complaints and dissatisfaction.

I am not pointing fingers at the company for my complaints but more how would we really able to enjoy life while working our socks off. Leaving government jobs aside, being employed with private construction firms were really no joke.

Here's some observations and experiences so far:

i) I have to work for 6 working days leaving only a day (Sunday) for my own personal space and enjoyment.

ii) Working hours doesn't matter anymore be it from 8 to 5 or 9 to 6 as the hours depend on the amount of workload and not by looking at the clock to rhyme "work's over!".

iii) Most employees doesn't leave the office on time as it should be. And those people who leave the last are always of higher positions/departments.

iv) Nobody really cares how well you are doing, thus adaptation towards work environment must be quick and passion of self learning must be high.

It is common sense that that's the reality of office working life. Perhaps it's pretty much the same elsewhere just that the role that we play determine type of working condition that fall on us. 

I'm calling them challenges that we need to overcome in this pacing working society. But the question is, how long can we retain such energy and passion? Can we still take up all of these challenges even though we are already reaching our forties? Going office early and leaving late may not sound so attractive to the aged group of community as there's much more important stuff to be obliged to like family, children, welfare just to name a few.

A freshie like me put myself in the perfect environment. And that is work. While working more help me gain more experience I needed the most. While the dreaded part would be sacrificing my weekends for the sake of work.

The good news is I shall finally dispose my 'single and available' status soon enough. And am proud to say just that.

Till den~ =)

Holistic Life Approach

Doesn't it sound ridiculous when one ask you to abandon your education while finding out more ways to earn money. Not very ridicule because it definitely have its point.

And the above statement is not about one person asking another but myself asking myself. Perhaps it's not about education that should be abandoned. The question should be more like this. "What's the point of frustrating myself studying and even worse for some random subjects I don't like when the final purpose of securing education certificates will be used to earn money in my future when I can find better ways to earn more money that what my certificates can secure me for"

So what if I can find better ways to earn good money than what I'm studying for? Isn't working life purpose is to seek more income to support ourselves? Good question to wash my brain a little. But that doesn't mean I am against education. Of course, education can makes life so much easier by knowing the hows and become a professional being in today's society while leveraging our thinking mindset.

So how do I approach a holistic life? What is holistic life? Simple as it sound. Its about living our life healthily be it physically, mentally and spiritually. More often than not we might have one priority over the others. It's pretty difficult to get hold the balance of these three elements. And even worst when I started out in the working life I hardly see myself any closer and understanding towards spiritual being or physically healthy. Mentally struggling in within and often resulting in stress and tension.

Here's a definition of what I mean by holistic.

Physically : Someone who can be healthy while taking care of own fitness through consistent physical exercising while ensuring own food intake (am talking about myself actually)

Mentally : Being mentally prepared and remain fresh as it is everyday through thinking about the solutions instead of blaming the problems and see the smallest details to the bigger picture. In a nutshell, connecting the dots.

Spiritually : Get a deep understanding on the core values of our spiritual belief and how it guide us through our life while keeping our best manners and attitude at hand.

I may have missed out financial. But I don't think it should be an emphasized element but significant enough to play a role towards our happiness.

So I am working towards these three elements in a bit and shall write a report later. It really takes time and effort and plans towards a holistic being. But I believe it would be fruitful in the end knowing how one end meets the other. And when I really did. I would be a holistic person. Muahaha~

Ironic Quote of Life

"Money can't buy you happiness but without money we can be unhappy"

Robert T. Kiyosaki

Thinking Trauma

It's been mere a week before starting on my first job. Many stuff crosses my mind and again am blaming myself for someone who thinks too much. So here I am again pouring my thoughts into this blog. About my story and about who I am.

Couldn't sleep and wonder why. No answers to that. Perhaps just some random thoughts kicking into my mind. Have been going through my memories, to see how far I can trace it back. Searching through the cupboards of memories, pulling the boxes and see how far my mind dated back. So it all started back from my kindergarden time as far as I can remember, trying to trace back those faces I knew then to junior school, high school, matriculation time then most current ones which was my uni life... Thinking back those friends I knew and some still keep in touch with is amazing. 

Going back through these memories are amazing. Really astounding to flash back on how far the journey I have made to where I am today. The changes I have went through and even the people I met. It's so fresh in my mind and seem like it's just few days or months away, but the reality surfaces. It's like 10 years ago and everything changes but the memories remains.

So much of the yesterdays where the past remains the past. What matters are the present and only the present so much that determines tomorrow's outcome.

So money minded these days when that really kicks into the brain when future plans are there. Watched a TV show recently and it rings so true to me as a man who just simply live life simple. To just forget about the complications of life and live life as there is. To earn a penny and spend a penny. To travel when there's enough money to do so just to enjoy life and be happy. Life is so much happier that way, to really set no goals at all and be worry free about nothing.

But is that possible? Not very likely unless I am a man of my own and nothing more. To live my own life where no one really cares about. To go anywhere I want to. Living life pointlessly are really great sometimes. 

Have been reviving Unity Bond once again, to keep things moving. It had been stranded for too long. And walla, finally a dot com for a shared blog with my very close friend. Am not sure how far can we bring this website but hopefully it would be more recognize globally and attract more people to read it. 

Watched 3 Idiots with my family just now. And it's a REALLY good movie. Funny and quite touching as well~ MUST watch!

So what waits ahead would be living a holistic life. A holistic being. Would explain more about this phase of life on the next post.

Have to sleep early (not so early) for a friend gathering back to high school rays trip tomorrow! Gonna meet the old faces again~ And it feels so good~

Till den~ :)